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Little wheel spinning. Spinning. Spinning.
Stuff happening deep in the gubbings.
I learned more about 'gubbings' in recent weeks than I had previously collated in a lifetime.
Days here start about 6am. I try to throw in 20 minutes of yoga but often not in the right frame of mind so make myself sit on the porch and shell nuts 'mindfully' (be calm, focus on digging that white bit out of splintered shell....) while the household shakes off the night, slurks its first coffee, rummages around making breakfast and gives empty (ish) yoghurt pots to the k9s. They carry them about like a prize; sit at my feet endeavouring to extract last morsels as the sunlight escapes the tops of the trees and warms us up.
Mornings have been cold.
Bro heads off to the workshop between 0715 and 0730. To begin with I followed him until my days segued into a short morning session of encouraging/assisting/motivating my niece to address the hell that is her end of the house. A bomb went off in a clothing warehouse.... Every time she can't stand it she just moves into another bedroom. I suspect some mental health lows. Avoidance. I'm removed enough to be able to suggest we tackle it in 5-10 minutes per day. When it's coming from her parents, hackles go up, heels dig in, stress levels escalate, she buries herself in scrolling.
Progress has been made. Another week or possibly two might see the visible part of the problem off. The underlying issues have root in various disadvantages she was born with. Her cheerfulness masks a lot of pain.
By 0815 she is on her way to work and I have moved to my bike repair station (verandah of the old office). After the demise of all the unrepairable bikes, I have had to sort and store all the recovered parts (particularly inner tubes -180 bikes out meant the best part of 350 inner tubes. A few went in the bin with worn and perished tyres.)
40 bikes have been renovated, and lined up on the verandah; 90% are womens and childrens bikes. 40 or so more mens bikes escaped the wrecking spree but we have no demand for them and I am working up projects to move them to other parts of the community. (Racing and road bikes are going to Tinwald Cycling Club. Mens Shed renovates bikes for charitable distribution. St Vincent de Paul is interested in having some for less well financially endowed families in their congregation.)
The Claw visited.Progress on bikes slowed considerably about two weeks in. (At this point I should perhaps mention that the workshops here are in sections, adjoining sheds, but each with distinctive allocation of tools and resources. The metal shop has all the uber-heavy stuff - lathes, bending, folding, drilling, plasma cutting, welding, grinding, the forge etc. Way above my pay grade all of it. I was allowed to use a polishing wheel the other day to get rust off some chrome! Big eyebrow raise. Next door is the automotive stuff (more heavy machines that don't fit in the metal shop, along with panelbeating stuff, machines for tyres, balancing wheels, lifting cars.... and cars and car bodies for England.) I was directed thereto, provided with some hightech heat gun and special scraper, and advised to get all the vinyl signwriting off 'that' van.
(Completing the tour - there is a woodworking workshop, a paint/flammables storeroom and a huge sewing room equipped with machines for upholstering; relevant later in this story.)
Back to that van. Best described as a metal box on 4 wheels. A panelbeater was doing a mate's job on repairs to rusted steel around the windscreen. It had no windscreen, no dashboard, no seats, no fittings of any kind in fact. All the 'gubbings' were all thrown randomly into boxes in the back. It was covered (inside and out) in dust and birdshit.
Signwriting removed, reassembly began with windscreen wiper mounts. |
Random selection of gubbings. |
Ok it still had a steering wheel; a metal box with 5 wheels, and signwriting from end to end. Remarkably the top of the back window says ' BIKE REPAIRS' so I left that bit. It seemed pertinent and wasn't in the way of any planned paint application.
More tomorrow...
Glad to see a blog post from you. I thought you were gone forever! 😪
ReplyDeleteYou are certainly earning your keep. The workshop setup sounds pretty nifty. All those Big Boy Toys. P would be in heaven.
Not gone - just processing some grief. I'll pull myself together in due course.
DeleteI am sorry to hear that. Sending a virtual hug x
DeleteAh there you are….we wondered where you’d snuck off to. Good to know you’re still earning your keep - helping the family in a physical way as well as moral support . Are you planning on renovating the van for yourself and Mr B?
ReplyDeleteSad time in blogland at the moment. Chin up me dear!
Thanks Cathy. It hits me at strange times. We shared a cycling interest and working on bikes has me often thinking about sharing opportunities that died with her.
DeleteI feel for your niece. She sounds like she’s deeply depressed. I know the signs as I get them myself.
ReplyDeleteI’m glad your there helping her. Sending hugs to you
Thank you Angela. Yes I think you are right about Niece. Even if she is coming out the other side now, the reminders of the worst pain have been beyond her capacity to address. I notice the process is gathering pace as more horizontal surfaces are revealed. One room has been converted into a comfortable and attractive TV room. Hallway is cleared. Linen pantry is cleared and organized and she has to do her own room alone with me sitting in the hallway talking to her.
DeleteGood to see you back TM.
ReplyDeleteThanks Dave. I never really went away - just spent too many hours a day doing other stuff. Posts on veg gardening to follow.
DeleteHari OM
ReplyDeleteYe gods - that's a doer-upper if ever there was one! I envy you all the workshopping spaces, though. That's kinda ace. Sending big hugs, YAM xx
I could not have tackled it on my own but it's what Bro does for hobby interest. He loves nothing better than 'doer uppers'. Difference between him and me is he knows how to choose them. Xx F
DeletePractical work helps when grieving.
ReplyDeletethis is really interesting, so many different facets of what he does. I know he is glad to have your help. I see above your comment about griefiving and am sorry to hear this. I don't know what or why but prayers for it to ease off each day a little more
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry to hear there's grief, and I hope things get better.
ReplyDeleteIt is sad to lose blog friends, even more so when you have met "for real" ((hugs))
ReplyDeleteThat is some project! And some heap of gubbings. It will be worth it when finished though.
Seeing reports of the fire at Castle Hill. Looks like it is heading for the Bach village now. Such a sacred place that hill...
Seems Castle Hill village has and emergency response plan. Most have voluntarily evacuated. Last report 11 remain, but no comment on whether they are refusing to leave or need help to do so.
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